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What Are You Waiting For? - How To Be Faithful When You Don't Feel Like It

How many of you put off going to the gym today and decided you'll just go tomorrow?


My hand is raised, too. From my couch. With the rest of my body snuggled under blankets.

I'm tired today, this couch is way too comfy, and the next season of Love Island is not going to watch itself.


But here's the honest truth.

I've pushed my date with the gym to "tomorrow" at least 4 times this week.

Mostly, because I've been tired, and mostly, because I haven't been motivated.


Who am I kidding, though? I'm not a gym rat. Never have been, and probably never will be. Shout out to the people that are. You are, what I like to call, #blessed. Don't get me wrong, I love playing sports and I usually love a good run, but going to the gym has never excited me like going to Barnes and Noble does.


So, why am I waiting on a feeling that comes naturally maybe once a year to do something that I know is good for me? Why am I expecting to get stronger when I'm not willing to do the thing I need to gain that strength?


I'm not going to see results unless I show up.

And the same goes for the thing God wants to do through me.


I pray for God to use me. To help others. To be a part of something bigger than me.

But I won't get off the couch. Literally, and figuratively here.


I haven't written lately because I'm convinced my writing has gone downhill. I kid you not, I sat down two weeks ago to write what God had on my heart for y'all, typed the first sentence, deleted it, typed it again, deleted it again, and repeated that process about 10 times before finally shutting my laptop and calling it quits.


Exhaustion. Writer's block. Fear. Lack of inspiration.

I could continue this list of excuses I created for what held back what could have helped others.


After I shut my laptop, I began to justify my decision to give up with these thoughts:


One day I'll write another blog post. One day I'll start my next book. One day God will use me.

One day when I have enough energy. One day when that door finally opens.


One day when I'm good enough.


But here's the truth: I never will be. And neither will you.

Sorry to break it to you, but we won't be perfect until we get to Heaven, so that "one day" facade will remain just that until we accept that God isn't asking us to feel ready, good enough, or capable.


He's calling us to be faithful with what He's given us right now.

Jesus said in Luke 16:10:


"Whoever can be trusted with very little can also be trusted with much, and whoever is dishonest with very little will also be dishonest with much."

Why am I expecting God to give me a big opportunity if I'm not obedient in the little steps?


Honestly, I'm not my best self right now. I'm working on it, but it's hard to feel like I have anything to say to y'all when I feel a little insecure, messy, imperfect, and scared. I feel hypocritical penning words that I need just as much as you.


So the "one day" excuse currently haunts me. One day, when I'm getting it all right, He'll use me again.

And then the excuse keeps me from not just writing, but simply spending time with God.


It's hard to worship when you don't feel worthy to. But isn't that the point?

We worship God because He's worthy, not because we're not.


We should be faithful to take a step and show up when we don't feel like it, or we don't feel like we can, because He's faithful to meet us there.


He's not asking you to do it perfectly, and He doesn't expect you to.


So, here I am, writing again. I don't know what you need, but God does. This is about pointing others to Him, not praising my talent. So, honestly, the pressure's kind of off. Thanks, God.


This blog post will not be the best you've read from any writer, ever, but I'm tired of making it about me. If God nudged me to write the words, there's someone who needs them. Maybe you needed a reminder that you don't need to strive to be perfect, or you just needed a little push to keep going, or you simply needed to know that God is not done with you yet.


Or, maybe these words are here to remind you that you're not alone and that Jesus loves you right where you are.


He's not waiting for one day, so why are you?

God used Moses even after Moses argued with Him about his limitations. He used David even when he messed up, and pretty badly at that... And God still used Peter even when He knew he was going to betray Him in the future.


God wants to use you knowing all of these things, too.


He knows we're imperfect. It's why we need Him.

He knows you're tired. He knows you're feeling a little scared. He knows you're not getting it all right. And He already knows when you won't get it right again.


But He loves you still, so much. He sees your heart. And He's going to love you whether you get up and go to the gym or not.


But if you want to get stronger and you want God to use you, you have to show up, even when you don't feel like it. And when you feel like you can't, invite Him to give you the strength you need.


Start with a small step. If you're a writer, too, maybe it's not writing a whole post. Maybe it's writing an encouraging paragraph on your Instagram story. Maybe it's writing a thoughtful text to a friend.


But first, spend some time with God, and remind yourself that He loves you, right where you are. Don't let shame or feelings of inadequacy keep you from going to Him. He will fill you. He will give you what you need.


And He's not waiting for you to come to Him when you have it all together, one day.

One day is now. Take a step into His arms, and watch how He can use you, even in your imperfection.


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